In this street I lay

Hoping you’d come back one day

This love that I have

Is love I can’t hold

I hold you up in the sky

I love to be shined by your light

The light that guides my heart

The light that heals my pain

I am no longer shined by that light

I am trapped in a cave

Trapped & surrounded by my ache

I am drowned in my misery

Weighted down by all the hopes I had for us

That feeling needs to be erased

I need to move on

But my heart is too weak for such actions

I feel so much pain

But it’s all trapped in this love I have

This love I can’t let go

This love I’m not supposed to have

This love that I hold

Would it be wrong for me to express how I love you

When you left you stated you needed space

It’s getting harder to respect that wish

It’s getting harder to forget all that we had

All that we did

All those moments with loved filled in that air

All those long gazes we had

All those beautiful moments that we shared

I feel my body broken;tormented;abused

I’m hurt by all this damage that you inflict

The damage I have from when you left me

But who am I to kid 

This pain tormented to my heart

Pain that has spread across my body

I am shackled with it

I am trapped in constant misery

In constant remindment 

How can I let myself free from this pain

This pain I inflicted upon myself

How do I deal with this pain that I gave

I write as if I’m worried about me

But that is all just a muse

I am worried about that damage I did

The pain that I caused

I’m not drowning in pain for myself

Rather the worry of the pain I caused you

I just want to talk to ask

A text or even a call

I long for that moment with you

But alas it seems too much

It seems too far