Trapped in this glass cage that I can’t escape
even while I breathe I do not feel as if I am awake
surrounded by these thoughts that hold my mind
these thoughts echo in my head throughout time
held hostage in my own head
while awake or asleep
I feel chained to this bed trapped so tightly in this cage
I feel it hard to breathe
I feel it hard to be myself
I feel it hard to just be me
If you could see my thoughts
you would see our faces
all the memories
all the things I wanted there to be
all the things that there shouldn’t be
but who am I to say
what’s true and what’s not
who am I to wish for things to be
I just wished
I hoped that things could’ve ended differently
that you could’ve been here standing with me
instead you’re just in my thoughts
in my head
just a memory
waiting to be forgotten
waiting to be dead
even if I don’t want that to be
It’s true
i’ve never felt this way about anyone
only you
only you could say my name
only you could see my pain
I can’t escape you in my mind
I can’t escape this place that you sit
I do not know you well but I know this
I am prisoner to my mind
I hold myself here for eternity with no clock, no way to pass the time for in this cage I sit
now here you are trapped with me for eternity
trapped in my thoughts
in this cage that we both can’t escape
but now I feel alive I feel awake
The world burns with passion & excitement
am I not to burn with passion
am I not to chase that excitement
what if it’s meaningless
what if I feel nothing of those endeavors
will that make me any less
I think i’m losing my mind in these thoughts
I’m drowning in shallow water can’t even keep my head above what feels to be 2 inches of water
I feel everything and nothing
wondering which way I feel is true and which is fake
I think about them constantly, asleep or awake
Losing my mind over a girl I don’t know
losing time losing control
things I couldn’t think
things I couldn’t be
now I sit here writing, waiting for you to find me
endless thoughts pressured in this mind
endless depravity
endless demise
this mind corrupt within minutes, within time
images flash and flicker trying to stay afloat
while drowning in these thoughts becoming suffocated
becoming relentlessly challenged with this place to stay
with this image to uphold
letting go
letting you in
wondering if my mind will change then